Happy Feet!

Today I went to our church where my friend Jennifer hosted a "girls morning out" for some girls from our local girls home. They ranged in age from 12ish - 18. Really, any of them could be my daughter. Any one of them could be me for that matter. Each one is beautiful, yet hard. Their eyes tell a million nightmares in one glance.
I just left Gracie and Camille reading in their sleeping bags on the floor by my bed...we are having a slumber party! We watched a movie (Happy Feet - so cute!) and had cereal for dinner and now a slumber party. The girls I met today probably have never had that with their mom. Never piled in a chair with their mom and sister (and a cat!) to watch a sweet, child friendly movie. Never had their mom listen as they talked on and on about why kids in the class had to move their card to yellow.
Some days I get so tired of these stories. So desperate for big people time. But I praise God that He made me a mother that craves a relationship with my kids, a mother who cares if they are clean and fed, a mother who prays over them EVERY night before I go to sleep, a mother who wants more than anything for them to know Jesus at an early age. Motherhood is so so hard. But daughterhood, without motherhood, is completely brutal. Thank you God, for my mom and how she still lets me need her even though I'm all grown up. Well, some may argue the grown up stage!
As far as blogging....it is weird. I feel like I am emailing my friends. I have found out that my "voice" is different than it is in my journal. strange. I am still journaling some, just not willing to open it up here on the internet- even though this blog is just for me!
Thank you God for my precious family. For my sweet little boy and my beautiful little girls. And certainly for Bill. You are so good.